I suppose it’s probably best to give a kind of outline as to some of the things I’ve been up to since graduating from a four-year program. Almost four months have passed since the big day, yet I didn’t do too much this summer, mainly from not knowing what direction I was heading towards in the fall. It’s crazy how you can have a good ten years planned out from high school, yet many things change as you become more independent from your friends and family and really try to understand what YOU enjoy separate from what others think you would be good at, if that makes sense.
I don’t know about you, but I went through high school having an okay, but not spectacular, time. All throughout those years I was told of how much fun I would have during my university experience, and although I did have many good times, these were significantly less than the constant anxiety I experienced over my grades and trying to balance work with my studies. One thing I did really enjoy, however, was meeting many different kinds of people that I would have never had the opportunity to have met outside of class.
Keeping this in mind, I didn’t feel as excited as I thought I would after graduation. It took these past few months to process that I am at a different stage in my life, and I did feel quite adrift dreading the ‘so what are you going to do now?’ conversation. I feel like I am now passed that period of worry, though, as I think I have a plan established that just seems right. Maybe I’ll go into greater detail another day, but I’d like anyone who is unsure of the future and who is panicking to know that you will figure it out at your own speed. Comparing your progress to someone else, even to your friends, does more harm than good. If something doesn’t work out, breathe and take a step back. Focus on something else that is productive. For me, this was saving money from working part-time. I wasn’t really sure what I was saving for, but now starting to plan for an internship abroad gives me something to look forward to!